Confidence – God and I have got this

Confidence

What is it?

And do I have it?

Well I thought I did.

That was until one component of my life was questioned.

And so if it was only a small area… why was I finding this so difficult???

The difficulty for me was that I truly believed this was an area that I had improved in, yet the feedback was saying different

My confidence was rocked badly, shaken so hard it was making me dizzy with a feeling of nausea. It felt as if my life was crumbling, even disintegrating. I began to feel very lost and alone, and ‘ganged up on’.

This was not a great place to be.

Often my confidence is so closely linked to my emotions, so yes you guessed it – my emotions began to take control.

Once my emotions are in full swing (and this was getting rather close) I begin to listen to wrong voices, allowing very inappropriate people to speak into my life and circumstances. If only this was it, but no….. … I started to believe them.

All this was happening simply because my confidence was rocked.

And for anyone who does know me, I do come across as very confident, yes I know who I am, I know what I am capable of and I am also aware of the many areas that need further development, but why could I not focus on my strengths and power myself through this.

This experience has brought extensive emotional battles and challenges but great to this, it has brought huge growth. I can now say (as I am at the other side of it) that I am thankful for this experience.

And take away a lesson.

What I hope to be able to do next time my confidence is rocked (yes it will happen again!!!)

S – Stand

Stand strong in the knowledge that I am a work in progress and I will survive.
God and I have got this

T – Tower above it all, yes this may mean a little bit of ‘pretending’ but I am going to have faith to know that I will get through it
God and I have got this

O – organise

Organise my thoughts, place them correctly, and only listen to what is correct, true and honest
God and I have got this

P – Pray

Be open with God about my weaknesses, own them and then allow the circumstance to move me forward.
God and I have got this.

 

If I follow this next time I hope that I am then able to power through the challenge quicker and be a great example for others.

 

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"Undaunted" by Christine Caine

A book I will read again!

The story that Christine shares is personal and impacting, full of honesty and openness. I related to so much of what she had to share and was extremely encouraged.

Christine is with no doubt a woman of faith, but it is the way in which she openly shares the journey of faith, including the thoughts of doubt and question and the wonder of how it will all work out that for me was the greatest encouragement.

I often feel like a lesser woman of faith when I begin to doubt, yet what I learnt from this real life story is that is the action which we take that will bring us closer to the purpose we were designed for.

I was also reminded that, from my own dark and depressive experiences, I can be used to empower and equip others; but it takes the desire to not only want change but to hang on tight to it, grip it well and move forward with it every day.

This is my first Christine Caine book, one I picked up from a recommendation, and I am so glad that I did. Christine writes in an easy to read fashion, but I found it was her honesty and humbleness before God that captured me.

I do recommend this book as a great read, but be prepared to be challenged whilst also very encouraged to become someone who is UNDAUNTED!

Deb
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