Confidence
What is it?
And do I have it?
Well I thought I did.
That was until one component of my life was questioned.
And so if it was only a small area… why was I finding this so difficult???
The difficulty for me was that I truly believed this was an area that I had improved in, yet the feedback was saying different
My confidence was rocked badly, shaken so hard it was making me dizzy with a feeling of nausea. It felt as if my life was crumbling, even disintegrating. I began to feel very lost and alone, and ‘ganged up on’.
This was not a great place to be.
Often my confidence is so closely linked to my emotions, so yes you guessed it – my emotions began to take control.
Once my emotions are in full swing (and this was getting rather close) I begin to listen to wrong voices, allowing very inappropriate people to speak into my life and circumstances. If only this was it, but no….. … I started to believe them.
All this was happening simply because my confidence was rocked.
And for anyone who does know me, I do come across as very confident, yes I know who I am, I know what I am capable of and I am also aware of the many areas that need further development, but why could I not focus on my strengths and power myself through this.
This experience has brought extensive emotional battles and challenges but great to this, it has brought huge growth. I can now say (as I am at the other side of it) that I am thankful for this experience.
And take away a lesson.
What I hope to be able to do next time my confidence is rocked (yes it will happen again!!!)
S – Stand
Stand strong in the knowledge that I am a work in progress and I will survive.
God and I have got this
T – Tower above it all, yes this may mean a little bit of ‘pretending’ but I am going to have faith to know that I will get through it
God and I have got this
O – organise
Organise my thoughts, place them correctly, and only listen to what is correct, true and honest
God and I have got this
P – Pray
Be open with God about my weaknesses, own them and then allow the circumstance to move me forward.
God and I have got this.
If I follow this next time I hope that I am then able to power through the challenge quicker and be a great example for others.
DEBriefing 
Thanks Deb.
A word in season.
So good to see you posting again, it lifted my day to see the notification pop up in my inbox 🙂
Debbie that is beautiful and yes He will get us through our challenges. We all have them but sometimes as you say our emotions get hold, and we falter. But,.. He hangs in there with us every second of every day and every sleepless night. Praise God, from whom all blessings flow..
Thank you my friend. 🙏🏻💐
Thanks for this great reminder which can be applied to so many different emotions.
Currently with me it’s GRIEF. 🙂