Why do I always ask why?
Over and over again.
It is like I never learn!
Something out of nowhere happens, circumstances change and become very different to what was expected or planned for, and my reaction?
And in most situations, or the ones I am able to reflect back on…. I don’t remember receiving the answer, and, although I know it is a rhetorical question, I still find a part of me waiting for the answer to come.
Why did I have to endure divorce?
Why did single parenting become a real life experience for me?
Or more a more simple scenario of life …. Why did that not work out according to the timing it was meant to?
And so, as I face another unplanned situation in life, I find myself running to ask this question. Not only do I tend to ask this as I travel though the situation, but I continue to find it to be my first reaction.
Recently it was framed as:
Why does this always happen to us? Haven’t we had enough and done all the right things to avoid this?
Yes I hear you; there is no answer to this, yet here I go again, looking for one.
And to be completely honest, I am very tired of this being my first reaction to an unexpected situation, or any question at all. Why can’t my first reaction be that of positive thought?
I have become very unimpressed with myself, and feel rather embarrassed that I become so overwhelmed at what others are very likely to view as a blessing, and here I go again, whining because it has not gone as I had planned. There is some inconvenience, and yes in some cases, a very large amount at that, but even with this, am I not blessed to be experiencing what I am?
It is about time that I learnt to let go of finding the answer and allow the situation to be used for good in the first instance and to not be the result that I eventually get to.
As I reflect back, it is the tough times in my life that have proven – yes there is time involved in the evidence of this – to be the best things/experiences in my life. The situations as they happen seem to have no rhyme or reason, yet it is these that are the core of a growth and strength like no other.
It is the unplanned, unexpected and at times overwhelming situations that become my greatest assets; therefore it is situations like these that I should learn to be thankful for.
And thankful does not ask why!
So, as I face this current situation in my life, I am placing greater effort in learning to be thankful, viewing this experience as something that is for my good and that regardless of what happens I can be confident in praying a prayer like this:
“My amazing God, I am so thankful that although I do not know why this has happened nor do I know or understand your plan, but I DO know you. You care for me, love me and have the best in store for me. I know with all my heart that you are good, you are faithful and you are loving. You ways are so much better than even my best of thoughts. I love you with all that I am, and because of this I believe that this is a part of what you have planned.”
Ok – this will take some time to speak with conviction, but I do believe this could be a great habit for me to begin.
Your friend who is learning not to ask why!