Why Do I Always Ask Why?

Why do I always ask why?

Over and over again.

It is like I never learn!

Something out of nowhere happens, circumstances change and become very different to what was expected or planned for, and my reaction?

Asking why!!!

And in most situations, or the ones I am able to reflect back on…. I don’t remember receiving the answer, and, although I know it is a rhetorical question, I still find a part of me waiting for the answer to come.

Why did I have to endure divorce?
Why did single parenting become a real life experience for me?
Or more a more simple scenario of life …. Why did that not work out according to the timing it was meant to?

And so, as I face another unplanned situation in life, I find myself running to ask this question. Not only do I tend to ask this as I travel though the situation, but I continue to find it to be my first reaction.

Recently it was framed as:

Why does this always happen to us? Haven’t we had enough and done all the right things to avoid this?

Yes I hear you; there is no answer to this, yet here I go again, looking for one.

And to be completely honest, I am very tired of this being my first reaction to an unexpected situation, or any question at all. Why can’t my first reaction be that of positive thought?

I have become very unimpressed with myself, and feel rather embarrassed that I become so overwhelmed at what others are very likely to view as a blessing, and here I go again, whining because it has not gone as I had planned. There is some inconvenience, and yes in some cases, a very large amount at that, but even with this, am I not blessed to be experiencing what I am?

It is about time that I learnt to let go of finding the answer and allow the situation to be used for good in the first instance and to not be the result that I eventually get to.

As I reflect back, it is the tough times in my life that have proven – yes there is time involved in the evidence of this – to be the best things/experiences in my life. The situations as they happen seem to have no rhyme or reason, yet it is these that are the core of a growth and strength like no other.

It is the unplanned, unexpected and at times overwhelming situations that become my greatest assets; therefore it is situations like these that I should learn to be thankful for.

And thankful does not ask why!

So, as I face this current situation in my life, I am placing greater effort in learning to be thankful, viewing this experience as something that is for my good and that regardless of what happens I can be confident in praying a prayer like this:

“My amazing God, I am so thankful that although I do not know why this has happened nor do I know or understand your plan, but I DO know you. You care for me, love me and have the best in store for me. I know with all my heart that you are good, you are faithful and you are loving. You ways are so much better than even my best of thoughts. I love you with all that I am, and because of this I believe that this is a part of what you have planned.”

Ok – this will take some time to speak with conviction, but I do believe this could be a great habit for me to begin.

Your friend who is learning not to ask why!

Deb
xx